Thursday, November 02, 2006

It's Only Fear

It's been awhile and it's been a bit crazy. My computer had a slight malfunction and I was pretty much lost for a few days. But, I'm back.

Last weekend, I went on a workshop that got me thinking and changing. I discovered that issues from childhood (that I thought I had dealt with) were suddenly front and centre. I was angry....very angry. Absolutely furious. I never realized how mad I was until this weekend. And, it was a breakthrough!

For many of us, past beliefs hold us back from doing what we want to do because we feel we will be rejected or we aren't good enough or worthy enough. But who is the one that deems us worthy? We do. Our fears, beliefs, etc can hold us back from doing what we really want to do.

During this workshop, we all had to take turns walking into an arrow and breaking it...just with our throats. Of course the fear was prevalent. Thoughts raced through my head: "What if I'm the only one that can't break the arrow?" "What if I injure myself?" "What if I die?" My brain was taking me out of the game before I had all of the facts.

But I did it. I walked through the arrow, breaking it. I broke through my fear. Now, if I can do that, I can do anything.

It's only fear that holds us back. Nothing else.


2 comments:

Ian said...

Breaking an arrow with your throat...what a neat idea! I can see how that would be inspirational and empowering for anyone. It would make me feel like a superhero ("I'm invulnerable to this - it can't harm me now").

Glad to see you back around the blogosphere.

Ian

Mistress Regina said...

It's good to have you back, Tamara. These things can be excruciating to deal with. It sounds, though, that you have found an effective way to address the issues. Be well.